Viable Food Plan or Eating Disorder in Training?

I don't know when I'm hungry. I get a bit spacy-headed after not eating for 12 or more hours, but there's no change in my stomach's feelings. Not until I figure I better eat something, hungry or not. Once I do start to eat, I feel I've had "enough" after just a few bites. Is that a 5? Was I right for stopping? Should I have instead eaten half a regular meal? Should I just stop thinking and just not eat if I have no gnawing hunger? I hope my Thin Within books get here soon!

But about a half hour after I eat, then I feel ravenous and can eat the pain off the kitchen walls if I could. I've been holding off as long as I can, then go back into the refrigerator about 2 hours later and grab the container with my leftovers. Sometimes I eat one bite and feel just as I did after "dinner," and other times I eat an entire 3-cup container of a casserole plus a banana plus some cookies plus a bowl (2-3 cups) of veggies and still feel ravenously hungry.

This morning I felt no hunger even at 11am, although I haven't had anything to eat since 6pm last night, but my head was spacey (Remember, I have hypoglycemia) so I grabbed a banana. After one bite I really didn't want to eat any more but felt I should or else I would probably pass out from low blood sugar. I'm now telling myself that'll be it until dinner time, when I eat a tiny bowl of salad and one chicken patty on a bun, and hope I can eat it. I know on Thin Within no food is forbidden, that all food is neither good nor bad, it's just food, but after a decade or more of tooling around with low-fat vegan I just feel guilty. I felt the same way Monday with the meatloaf, which is why I ate maybe an ounce and then ate a few teaspoonfuls of potatoes and spinach.

I guess I should pray about it.