Spring is Here; More Weight Rants

Well, since we were having spring-like temps throughout most of winter, I guess we went from autumn to spring. Not that I'm complaining!

I've been obsessing over my weight again and the lack of weight loss no matter what I do. I even spent a week eating nothing but fruits, beans and veggies, staying hungry the entire time (while awaiting "real" hunger, not the "toxic" hunger that comes from the body ridding itself from toxins) and besides being shaky, fuzzy-headed, paranoid, tense, and having chest pains from the stress of starvation, I lost a whopping - ready for it? - 2 pounds. I ended this failed experiment by making a pot of spaghetti and vegan meatballs. My husband was happy (He eats what I serve him for dinner and fills up on junk food later on) and my tummy was certainly happy.

I then started searching other web sites for other food plans to follow that might jump-start weight loss.

I glanced over my personal journal and saw that my weight has been stable, within the same 20 pound range, for almost 30 years, with only a few exceptions. Actually, it's been in that weight range since I graduated high school in 1971! I went up 20 pounds higher twice, after injuries that left me unable to exercise, and twice down only 10 pounds during periods of long-term semi-starvation on diets very similar to what I just experimented with and an hour of exercise daily. The weight never stayed that low for long and started coming back on immediately with no change in eating, usually because an injury that kept me from doing that much exercise.

It is so not worth it!!

I'm almost 60 years old. When will I stop behaving like an eating disordered teenager? I guess when society and the medical profession finally accepts the fact that you CAN be fat and healthy.